Saturday, February 27, 2010

I don’t know why am I writing today… I thought.. I wont be..

But then our exams begin on the 3rd of next month… Its always a bluff to students… starting exams in march first week… psychologically.. its disturbing when u see the month of February a bit short..

Although it hardly matters.. hold on..it does… 2 days.. a lot of time..

Just gets into your nerves… u cant help yourself getting anxious..

So.. exams in 3 days and I haven’t started anything… if u ask of my preparation..its negative.. u haven’t read anything but u know the subject and the matter.. ye ek baat hai… but u haven’t read at all and u have no clue whatsoever of the subject… gosh.. I don’t know…wats gonna happen.. I can see myself sitting in the examination hall… looking at the invigilator… pretending to think..as if I am missing something… then a shake of head... a flash of bulb in my head… a nod.. bending down..and again..pretending..to write at vigorous pace.. then slowly taking out the chit… opening it in a flash… and oops… I haven’t written anything about this topic… aisa kyun hota hai ki jo likh k laata hoon wo poocha nahi jaata and jo poocha jaata hai wo main likhta nahi… I swear…next time…haan.. next time.. main zaroor achche se chit banaunga..

Back to present… life has become monotonous.. studying.. ichche hochche na.. South Africa 177/1 (29.2 ov) Kar kya rahe hain bowlers hamare… there’s a match going on… and I am not watching… I cant believe it…kyun…padhna hai.. ye khayal aate hi neend aati hai.. 12:30 me to so k utha.. no more sleep now… but studying doesn’t seem a very adventurous idea right now…hmmm… Adventure???

Life is all about excitement? Why do we get agitated when something un happening goes on?? Berang si hai meri zindagi kuch rang to bharoon… kyun? Wats the big deal if it goes on plain yet balanced.. actually its not…for some people… and it does matter for some…

“Kuch log they jo waqt ke saanche me dhal gaye… kuch log hain jo waqt k saanche badal gaye”

Life is short. People talk about doomsday. I ask a question here… what is doom to a human being?

The day when people leave their mortal body…they succumb to the second only truth on this earth.. death?? Or day when one stops smiling and enjoying… Highs and Lows in life are two sides of the same coin…even complementary to each other… I must say… the existence of Happiness is impossible without sorrow… but then drowning yourself with pain??… hoping to die??…suicide?? These things are criminal in nature and I also term them as terrorism…. But then one suffers on his own accounts and one same is the case with happiness. Misery is caused by sin, and by no other cause. What business have you with clouded faces? It is terrible. If you have a clouded face, do not go out that day, shut yourself in your room. What right have you to carry this disease out into the world? Rejuvenate!!! Cheer Up!! Help others do the same. Be adventurous. Look out for happenings. Excitement. If exam seems exciting to u… Enjoy it… unfortunately this is not the case with me… at least in this semester… I m screwed.. Big time. I got to work on it. Study. I don’t understand a word as of now. And so, I got to study harder. Bye then!!!

And yes.... Dinoop.. a very dear friend of mine said some time back ki zindagi monotonous lag rahi hai...and that caused me to write this. Cheers Dinoop!!!

1 comment:

  1. Feel a certain connect with you , on this note.

    But remember , nothing is easy nothing is tuff, its just your perception of it.

    So , mere dost , dont drop to your knees in nervousness , wich seems to b a certain ailment in your case !!

    You are a person from whom many can learn a thing or two (actually a lot many things) , and i m doing it particularly rite now , but there is 1 lesson i would like to give.
    B a little less agitated and a little more optimistic about it all !! Xams r not all that bad. Consider them less as an obstacle in your life , and more as a learnin part of it !!


    Cheers !!
    Dont b nervous !
    ( Atleast not on the inside)

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